One day in clinic at my massage school I asked my classmate Megan, “how are you so happy and glowing all the time?” She replied that she would share her secret with me in a bit. I thought YAY!! 😃, this girls going to tell me her secret beauty routine and some sort of amazing, I’m a glowing badass meditation routine. She very much surprised me when she told me that simply she had found Jesus and he was the secret sauce to her glowing happy demeanor(seed planted). 😒A little crestfallen I listened to her story and as happy as I was for her I thought to myself, yeah but how can I apply that to my life, I don’t even go to church or really think about God. Well fast forward about 2 years when something seriously major happened in my life. (Planted seed 🌱)I found myself sitting in a chair in my living room looking up at my ceiling saying “God this is just TOO much for me!! I dont have enough capacity to deal with this and I need help! If you help me with this, I promise to go to church every Sunday.” I then went to church starting that Thursday with thanksgiving mass. I prayed to God for help and mentally put all my troubles at his feet. I have since gone to church at least once a week, I try and pray every day at least once and I have started multiple novenas. I have also downloaded an audiobook by Laura Story “When God Doesn’t Fix It”. Here’s what I have learned, that even though I wasn’t thinking about God at all during my time away from him, he was thinking of me. He doesn’t always say yes to our prayers but he does hear them and answer them in his own way, even if the way he does isn’t what we asked for or expected. Coming back to God and his community has been incredible. I am still going through an extremely challenging time but I find I’m more at peace than I would have been with out him by my side. Praying has become less about me asking for things but more of a daily meditation and asking for his grace and asking for strength and my ability to trust in him. God loves us no matter who we are, no matter what we have in our past, no matter how broken we think we are.
I now understand where my friend Megan was coming from. Inviting God into our lives changes everything!! 🤓☺️
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